In the Far Beyond Rainbow.

Gren is one of my favourite characters in Cowboy Bebop. When Faye met him for the first time, she told him: "Instead of feeling alone in a group, it's better to be alone in your solitude.", He answered: "You just got scared of losing them. So you distanced yourself from them." Yesterday I was thinking maybe that’s my case. That's why I always prefer to be alone. Loving someone is so hard. Most of boys who I know are so bold to approach girls and seems not afraid of loosing anything or breaking a heart, whether it's theirs or hers. But I afraid. I afraid of loving, I afraid of not Worthing my boyfriend. I afraid of breaking a part of my and someone else’s heart. I think every time a heart breaks, a stone replaces the broken part.




See You Space Cowboy
By: SeatBelts & Yoko Kanno

Since I thought everything was over
Closing my ears
What you're telling me is floating away
Towards tomorrow there is no comfort
When the night even prays it disappears
What do you believe and where are you going?
The shooting star is the color of tears, is like laughing, passing away now.
There's nothing. Don’t change.
You cannot extinguish this love
To live eternally.
Even if the dream is hiding in the darkness
I got a rainbow
In my hands...
I got a rainbow.
In my hands...
The voice goes passing in my deep mind.
The morning I pray in front of the truth
There are some things that never change.
Love will be coming back here again.
Love never dies
Love never feigns
Love never ever fades away
Love never dies
Love never feigns
Love never ever fades away
This love won't be faded away.
You can't fade away this love
Which means leaves forever
Breaking darkness
When you pass the phantom
Freeze in the passing time
Then love is waiting
In the far beyond rainbow
You got a rainbow
You got a rainbow
Rainbow in your hands...
Rainbow in your hands...

... And I think comment section of Nightly's interview with a Persian gay boy (with 500 comments) become a mirror of what Iranian people really think about us. I must confess that it doesn't seem promising. I think most important thing that these comments show is that most of these people seems to not having any idea what being gay is about! I think our problem is actually a far more general problem. A traditional uneducated society, which doesn’t like to read or learn and love to judge everything, based on something close to nothing, and I think that’s a universal problem. Even seems that American gays share this problem with us (That's one of the reasons that I think Queer as Folk is so important. It shows people what it means to be a gay man). But actually some of the comments seem promising. Some people came back and defend their idea and these debates seem very promising. Same thing happen in Hamjensbaz weblog. The comments for his last post became a place for talk about what really is being GAY about. Even our religious friend seems to learn things that he didn't know. Mahshid in comment section of old version of Nightly interview with a Persian gay boy writes a memory from late Saviz Shafahi. She wrote: When Saviz came to Stockholm for Pride parade she meet him and marched beside him. A day after that Saviz had a speech and during that march he gave people announcements for this speech. There was a group of people who curse at marching people. Saviz went toward one of them and gave him an announcement. That man ripped the announcement and cursed Saviz. Saviz gave him another one. This act repeated for more than ten times. At last that man became tired and put the announcement in his pocket. Mahshid told Saviz that he would not come. Saviz said: he will. And he came."

... And at last something really crazy. First time I listened to Yeti Song, I thought what a foolish thing. But I ended with listening to it for a few hours!!!! and smiling. I think it's one of those little things like Muppets Mahna Mahna, which people always smile when remember them. Who cares what is Mahna, Mahna?!