I Need a Little Room to Breathe.

The Undertoad is wicked during past few days. I am in sort of a Linkin Park mood.

I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes.

I hate growling, but I just can't tolerate lying so much about myself and even recently to myself. I think that even when you try your best, you can't go on alone. Somewhere I read: Life is like a Bridge game. If you don't have a good partner you better have a good hand. I think even if you have a good hand playing alone become a torture after awhile. Life without someone to share with and to rely on is so hard. One of greatest thing that they didn't teach us (actually denied from us as hard as they can) when we were kids, is how we can love someone. How we can share our life. How when we felt like falling, reach for help. This as an art and we must learn it from childhood. All that things which we learned at school is nothing compared to art of being social, art of communicating with other people, the ability to not always be suspicious to other people, and capability to love someone more than ourselves.

And I’d, give it all away, Just to have somewhere to go to
Give it all away, to have someone to come home to.

And one question: how Mark Hall or others like him can be so powerful?

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not all right.

PS: What happen if "Chester Bennington" screams lesser and sing more like "My December"?

... And always when I feel so lonely, listening to Lady Cher's The Song for the Lonely help me feel better.

... And as we approach April 18, thanks to great Andrea, there is a large collection of clips from season 4 of Queer as folk at Sandstorm Website.

... Also there are some clips from VH1 going inside Queer as folk at Nummy Treat. (Thanks to Wendy). (I just wish somebody upload the whole show!)




((Image is from QAF Addiction website)

... And new Spiderman 2 trailer is breathtaking.